NOW! -- The Struggle is Real
Chick #5 - M
May 20, 2016
Changing your lifestyle is hard. Especially when you don't have the motivation or the passion to do it. The past few weeks I have struggled greatly with trying to better myself.
"I'm an adult, I can eat what I want when I want". I guess you could say I sort of rebelled. No one was going to tell me what I can and can't eat. No one can tell me when I need to go to the gym. And most definitely no one can tell me how much weight I need to lose!
Well I have to say my rebellion came to a quick halt when I had my yearly physical. My doctor informed me that my blood sugar was rapidly increasing and if I didn't change my eating and fitness habits, I would soon be diabetic. Diabetic. Whoa.
As I drove away from the doctors office, I couldn't stop thinking of how and why I let myself get this far. Why did I never draw the line when it came to food? Why didn't I push myself to work out more. Oh, right. It's because I'm an adult. I can do what I want. Silly, selfish me.
Today, as I was driving home from work, a song came on the radio. 'Say Something' by A Great Big World. As the song played, I couldn't help but relate to the lyrics. I feel like my self esteem and self worth is giving up on me. It wants me to say something, do something. It wants me to fight and be a healthy. Not only for me, but for my son.
I went for a walk today. Baby steps.
I can't give up on me.
-M
